The Angry Blog

This is going to be the angry blog.
This is a wonderful week. Still unemployed with 0 prospects, Alaska and Hawaii are looking to be considerably harder to reach than originally planned. The DMV sent me a letter saying that I need to go in to a branch and make an appointment for something or another inevitably saying that my license is on probation or something to that effect. The girl I first fell in love with just got engaged to the guy she dumped me for, and I got that news second-handed from a friend talking nonchalant about it. And I finally found a girl i connect really well with, she's going through hell and all I have done is bust my ass to make sure shes ok, but despite how well we connected the first few days, she has promptly started to ignore me and not take my hand of help. I just don't get it on that one... really... All I have done is try to help, and when we are together its like being on the clouds, but now I'm ignored, my help isn't accepted and I get to watch her fall apart alone...
But.
Would I change a few of these situations for the better?
Yes
But.
Would I trade this life for one that knows not what suffering means?
No, never would I want something other than this, because this is real, and I know I'm doing all I can for my life, and it's something that I have made mine.
PTFO

I Disappear

So I'm in Cardston, AB and last night was a rough night that inspired this song, It's not finished, but I've got both verses and the chorus down.

I Disappear

Verse 1
I'm sick of feeling all alone
The only one the way I am
But try as I might within the crowd
No one gives a damn
I'm sick of being all alone
In search of who I am
There comes a time with everyone
When it's time to take a stand

Chorus
And I
Could Disappear
Run Away
Far from here
And I
Could shed a tear
Fall apart
Live in fear (of me)

Verse 2
I’m sick of feeling all alone
Always misunderstood
Words and phrases, whispers, rumors
I’ve always done all I could
I’m sick of being all alone
Lost in this game of life
Pushing on through it all
Trying to balance on the knife