Nostalgia

Today I've noticed that I have become extremely nostalgic. I'm remembering old times that there was a tiny sliver of sunlight penetrating the gloomy overcast skies of my life. Old friends, old relationships, old hobbies, old hang out places, old road trips, old songs. It's really just hitting me hard I think that even though i was going through hell back then, I seemed to have something tangible to keep me up, at least those are the times I am remembering. I have this burning desire to rekindle relationships with people who have somehow dropped out of my life or that I'm not close with anymore even though I know that I will probably be let down by the fact that neither they nor I will ever be the same as it was. I was driving home from Doug and Moose's place tonight and the song "Running Blind" by Godsmack came on and it just really hit home.

Can't find the answers
I've been crawling on my knees
Looking for anything
To keep me from drowning
Promises have been turned to lies
Can't even be honest inside
Now I'm running backward
Watching my life wave me goodbye

Running blind
I'm running blind
Somebody help me see I'm running blind

Searching for nothing
Wondering if I'll change
I'm trying everything
But everything still stays the same
I thought if I showed you I could fly
Wouldn't need anyone by my side
Now I'm running backward
With broken wings I know I'll die

Running blind
I'm running blind
Somebody help me see I'm running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind

I can't find the answers
I've been crawling on my knees
Looking for anything
To keep me from drowning
I'm running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind
Running blind